Christmas this Year

Well its Christmas day, yet it really dosen't feel like it this year.  I really do not know why bit this year feels diffrent.  Really difffrent.  It seems to be more of a change in me though.  Usually I would have had a list a mile long but this year I really did want anything....My brother is not here this year, he had to work.  It's just really weird this year.  Everything has changed, I want normal again.  But is normal change in real life?  *sigh*